If this is what you wanted, then i have nothing more to say. I know, you cared for me, i appreciate it very much. Even if i didn't express my feelings, doesn't mean i don't have feelings too. Everytime, you just fucking say you have no mood, nevermind, let you cool down. I really don't know what to say, or how to do. After all this rain and sunshine, alot of things happened. I don't wanna say them all out, cause matters are already too obvious. Maybe this is always the outcome. Maybe in this world, there's always wrong but no rights. My life, it sucks though. After so much, comments are over comments. There's just too much. To them, they just think that you are right, i'm wrong. Its like so they only concerned about your feelings, what about mine? Yeah, i have wrongs too. i did stubborn stuffs at times. I'm feeling guilty, miserable all day and night. Seeing you, moodless or whatever, it does concern me. Not because i have back those feelings in you, but because all i wanted was to just treat you as a very good friend, and care for you as a friend. But, its like caring for a friend is also wrong. I know, you don't treat me like what a friend does, but more then a friend. I've noticed everything. But humans feelings do change. And so what if tiongxim. It dies, seriously. No feel means no feel, nothing else. I just can't find back those feelings, like i have with me in the past. Its definetely no way. Okay, even if you were to read this post, or not, i don't care you know. Its not my problem anymore. Be it rain or shine, i won't give it a damn anymore! All along, you let me with the things i wanted. Thanks, i'm not blind, nor dumb. But since you make it a fact that its like i don't appreciate your kindness, or whatsoever, you can say all whatever you wanted to others. Lastly, i don't care how others look at me, but i care how does others treat me. If you really do treat me as a friend, thanks. But if you didn't, i have got nothing more to say. I've talked more then i had enough all these days. Maybe, i shouldn't have appear in this world, like nobody's business. Love is complicating, so does friendship. If there's any grudges you suffered, pls tell me. Little actions, expression you facing, i felt guilty. You wouldn't tell me how you felt, it makes me don't know anything. I don't wanna tell you, if i'm seriously ok or not was because i don't like others to go through so much concern in me. It makes me only felt more guiltier. Just because i didn't tell you that i'm fine or what sort, doesn't mean that i don't care. I care for friends, and i treat everybody the same. Believe it or not, i'm just gonna say these, even if i takes till the day i'm dead, i'm still gonna say all these. It doesn't matter if i take alot of time to let you understand or what. And if you treat me as a friend, can you even at least don't make me feel that guilty? Despite the facts that you told me not to. But i'm sorry, i still can't bring my guilt down. Thanks and sorry for everything. We'll just be normal, nothing else.
So even caring for a friend, is so hard. Who knows that all of these could become hatreds too.
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