Finding reasons to go through it all.

Ask me why i'm crying, because i've kept all the tears behind and face difficulties through it all. Ask me why i kept crying, because its hard to forget stuffs and pretending it never happened before. Ask me why i kept crying, because life is so hard yet nobody said it was easy. Ask me why i kept crying, because all along i've tried to be strong, depend on myself and don't intend to rely on others. Ask me why i kept crying, because i can't find the right things in my life, i'm not satisfied with stuffs around me. Ask me why i kept crying, because nobody said that its not okay to stop crying. Ask me why i kept crying, because everyday i'm alone, using my laptop, and just sat down typing things. Ask me why i kept crying, because i don't have the mood to do other things that would stop me from crying. Ask me why i kept crying, because i could only dream in fantasies, and it won't happened in life. Ask me why i kept crying... Because there's hundreds of problems in me, and i can't find ways to solve them, trying to be strong, i could only fake a smile. And here's the real reason why i'm so moodless and started to cry, because there's a quote i found it meaningful, " crying doesn't mean you are always weak, it just shows that you have really been strong, strong enough to cry.  " 

I found myself in pool of tears, after all, i'm just a dreamer.