For people tends to make small matters into bigger ones.

- Loving someone doesn't have any wrongs. Once the heart is broken, it forever will. Even if it recovers, there will still be a scar leaving on.

Cause what do you know? I guess it's been such a long time since i've last typed my stuffs down. Today, i feel happy, tired, guilty. Life hasn't always been fair. It's just how, you humans choose to carve out your life. I don't say things out, that's my problems, i don't fucking owe anyone my life. You got your own to settle, just settle yours. Why come and help me settle mine? Yes, indeed i don't know how to carry on anymore. Can life just give me those reasons to live? I love all my friends including you. What i hate most is, you love to put all the blame on you. What for? Why bother apologise to things when next time you did it again? W.h.y? I don't blame you, cause i don't hold grudges towards my friends. If i really hate you, i'll tell you face off. Why do i keep on forgiving my friends and just forget everything? Cause why do you hold the blame to your friends, when everything would be sunshine after rain again? Can you stop being so negative. Why not try to think of the positive way? I really don't mind typing all these out you know. I don't mind people shoot me or yeah, for i think i need to care means i will. By all means if you see this, and you should know you are the one i'm referring to. I know you won't give up. Loving someone doesn't have any right or wrong. You still have time, you are only 14 and not some 50 years old uncle. Why not letting go even if it takes up your life to do it? You would never know what will happened. There's so much choices out there, did you even use your eyes and take a good look at them? You know what, thanks for all the gifts, encouragements and many other stuffs you gave me. I appreciated them alot. I'm happy. But do you? I know, you don't feel good every night. But why? Why must humans purposely make themselves feel so terrible? Does it feels good, crying yourself to sleep, each day? I experienced this before, no it doesn't. The next day, your eyes would become so swollen and ofcourse pain. Follow your heart and think things twice. Love has no flaws, isn't wrong to love someone so deeply. But does it really worth the wait? I don't know, i'm not you, everybody isn't you, we will never understand the feeling you feel inside. How many months right now, don't tell me it's still encounting on? Hah, please, go off and take a good look around you. Look at all the choices. Cause i'm not the only creature living in this fucking world.

-Don't just stop at the same point without even giving anything a try. Move on to a different point and you'll realised, "she's not the only one i'm waiting for."